Oh working...

Ok...I've always wanted to be a stay at home mom...haven't really ever WANTED to work but found a job that was perfect for me over 4 years ago WORKING with kids. I work a daycare for medically fragile kids and a pediatric home health agency. for 2 1/2 years I just worked in the daycare...now I am in the office and sub in the daycare when they need help. Always loved this job...never wanted a new one. It kinda filled the void of being a mom and staying at home and didn't seem like "real" work. Until now! Now that I AM a mother...this job doesn't do it for me anymore. I use to come in early...stay till we closed...now I never make it on time and can barely WAIT to get out as soon as I can. I spend most of the day thinking about Grace...wondering how she is...if she misses me...if she's crying...if she's been changed...Is she being held a lot...is she gonna do something for the first time and IM gonna miss it. Working at a daycare...I have seen that happen one too many times...sometimes we don't TELL the parents so that we don't make them sad that they missed it. I don't want that...I want to experience everything first with her. The daycare she is at is AMAZING...don't get me wrong. I love all the people there and trust them all...its just that I want her with ME. Hopefully...soon...I will be able to be a stay at home mommy. and I totally could. Some people say they couldn't...they'd get bored...not me. Plus our house is messy enough I would always have something to clean lol!! Anyway...my job use to be everything I needed but now that I have gotten everythign I have wanted (a baby) the job just kinda doesn't matter. I do love my coworkers...and of COURSE the kids. They are the main reason I can get through a day there. Be able and go get a big hug or kiss. They yell my name. That makes it worth it...but yet I still think of Grace...and would give it all up just to be home with her. So yeah...just felt like writing about that. Oh and things are looking good for us to be able to adopt!! :-) yay!!

Sisterhood of the traveling pants??

So...I watched Sisterhood of the traveling pants 2 the other night. Which I loved lol!! But I got to say that it made me a little sad...or happy I guess. Me, Melissa, Tamara, and Laci are all I could see with those four girls. We don't necessarily have "pants" to pass around (Thats kinda weird lol) but it made me thankful to have you 3 girls. We are all different, have different opinions, lead different lives...but have great memories and no matter how long its been since we have talked or seen eachother its like not a day has passed. We have had our ups and downs but no matter what we know that we love eachother. I just wanted to write a blog saying how much I truly love these girls...love our past...and love that we will ALWAYS be apart of eachothers lives. We may not tell eachother a lot and I know I am really not good about telling other people that I love them but I really do love these girls.............. On that note...we really need a girls weekend lol!!! I miss y'all!!