random thoughts

Welp as I sit here wasting time on this computer as my husband plays xbox I figured...why not right a blog. Its about 8:45 and well Im tired and ready for bed. It is sad. You get married, you automatically are old and go to bed early. I RARELY stay up past 9:30. Its sad I know and I can't sleep past about 7:30! Oh well!
I am really happy with my life right now besides the overwhelming desire EVERYDAY to want to have a kid, or adopt a kid, or foster a kid. But...I have to wait. Biggest test of patience EVER, which I do understand WHY I can't but...oh well.
I love my job. I love the people (most of the time), the kids (all of the time), and just the whole relaxed atmosphere. It's JUST for me. I don't make a whole lot but thats not what its about. It's about the kids and providing the right service for kids who's lives are already hard.
I really like my house. Notice I didn't say love! I like it because its a perfect 1st house on a GREAT street with nice hardwood floors and a lot of character. I don't really care for the kitchens floors/cabinets/or countertops but those MIGHT get changed one day. I also wish there was another bathroom. I am glad that so far we haven't seen any bugs...besides a few spider webs but thats it!
Speaking of bugs I am afraid of so many things!!!! and I don't really know why! I am afraid of bug (ALL BUGS), the dark, having a serious health problem, scary movies lol and Im sure other things that I can't think of. Sometimes I hate being scared!
Ok enough jibber jabbering! I don't really know who will actually read my blogs but I am gonna write anyway because well writing is suppose to be good for you! Ok well g-night!